All of our training said this day would come. The day of days, the day when as a missionary I would inevitably make a big culture mistake and I would be embarrassed by it. I have made tiny mistakes here and there but nothing to be too embarrassed about. In fact, last week I was thinking, “I have not made a huge culture mistake yet, I’m doing good. I hope I NEVER make one.” Hmmmmm….
I think it’s enough for you to know that I messed up and I have been messing up. I had no idea. This is a difficult situation because it’s personality related. In order to fix the problem I have to change some elements of my personality. My personality has flaws. Are you shocked? If you know me, then you are not shocked in the least. It is very important to me that I make these changes because, 1) I want John to be respected 2) I think I can bridge the gap and possibly reach more people this way.
Oh, but **GROAN** how embarrassed I was today! If I had a shell I would have tucked inside for hours! How humbling this lifestyle is! The minute you think you have something down, you really don’t. This may be my first big culture mistake, but it will not be my last. The only thing I can do is fix what I can now and wait until I mess up again. Thank goodness I have a loving husband to give me a hug and say “It’s ok, this will pass.” Thank goodness I have a Heavenly Father whose mercies abound and who might be up in heaven right now having a little chuckle at my mistake and saying “Oh, Mel.” And one day I will chuckle about this too, but not today 🙂